Negative.

Our pregnancy test was negative and it’s all over now. I’m not ready to talk about it, definitely not ready to be any kind of positive about it. I need some time and space to grieve the future I had envisioned because it is most certainly gone, and that’s a hard thing to let go. It’ll take some time. I’ll be back when I’m done.
Thanks so much for hanging in there with me. 

12 thoughts on “Negative.

  1. I’m so sorry to hear that. I’ve been through infertility as well. It is a difficult and very personal journey for everyone. All I can say is that there is hope and there are options. IVF didnt work for me either…other things had to tried. Egg donation worked for my sister-in-law. She suffers from severe Leiomyomas and had to have vaginal mesh placed in which prevented her from conceiving “naturally”….egg donation worked for her. Donor eggs were screened and they selected one donor and used her husband’s “contribution”….it has resulted in 2 healthy pregnancies. There is also adoption. Both Ann Jerse and Alison O’Brien, both strong women, adopted children when they went through similar issues. It is all about what you and Seth want to pursue and what works/feels right for your family. But time is needed..time to grieve the loss…time to think..time to just be… I also suffer from depression and the infertility does make it more difficult to cope, to say the least. Please know that help is there…my ear is always “open” and available. Happy to just listen, as sometimes that is what you need… I’m thinking of you and Seth. In my prayers.

  2. I’m sending as many hugs as you can receive right now, Rachel. Be gentle to yourself and take all the time in the world to heal. You and Seth will have the family you are meant to have, whether it’s through adoption and foster care, having fur babies, or unoffically ‘adopting’ those who mean the most to you. You’ll find a way to make it happen.

  3. So sorry to hear this Rachel. We will be praying for you and Seth. We have been through the infertility roller coaster if not the IVF journey. When/if you want to talk, I am here.Its going to be ok, I promise. It may be different than you imagined, but it will be OK.

  4. If I were near you, I’d just come and sit there in silence. Pretend all of us are there with you, sitting with you, quietly. When you need to talk, we’ll listen and try not to say too much. It’s yours to share or not. But you are NOT alone. I’m so glad you already know that.

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